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GRADUATION CEREMONY 2010!

3 years had just passed in a blink of an eye.
many thoughts came to my mind during graduation today and i couldnt express it.
the friends we made, the lessons we were taught, the experiences we had, the nonsense we made, the camps we had, the boring lectures we went, the food we ate & everything else were definitely memorable. Cant believe we're leaving TP and off to another path of our life. I guess i'll miss being a poly student.

Took pictures with many many people that made an impact in my TP life or rather friends that deserved to be called friends. Afterall, i guess im not gonna forget all these people. and im really thankful to my 2 'only friends' in TP. Without these girls, i'll probably be outcasted by the rest. LOL, since the 3 of us are so anti-social. Yvonee's speech really touched me (psst! i almost teared). I'd like to express my gratitude to Mr Alvin Poh (my fave teacher, hahahaha) too. He's like the funniest, wanna-fierce-but-not-fierce and friendliest lecturer. i still remember how i wished he'll call me instead of the others when we're having SIP. HAHAHAH those were the days. Oh well, it's rather nice to see everyone coming together for a happy occasion. (:

oh right. i wanna thank xiangluan too! this girl is soooo sweet to come down with a pretty sunflower to congratulate on my graduation! she claimed to 'replace' my parents who are unable to come. hahahaha love this girl! THANK YOUU!

well.... life's gonna be different for everyone else from now on. i wonder if we'll see everyone coming together again.

im so damn upset. although i've expected it coming. im lost. i dont know where to go and what to do. i thought i was able to accept the fact. i was laughing it off with my parents before showering.
but i guess i couldn't take it in my heart. and i clearly know it. why do i have to pretend?
i had to cry it out during shower. and i guess i had to let my parents know whats troubling me.

its been long since i've told them my problems cause i never seemed to have one that needed their advice. now i need them. so long since the whole family sat down and listen to each other's problems. i couldnt even start talking about it and tears had to roll down.

tons of advices and words of console really made me tear to the extreme. i felt so ashamed of myself for thinking that way. i hate my personality for being this way. why do i have to mind what others think and say. i felt guilty seeing mummy willing to sacrifice herself for my future. it really hurts me deep down in my heart. i really had to wake myself up and stop being childish. i should be proud of what im doing. i should not compare with the others. dad's right about how people fail when they compare.

as much as i hated my elder brother and that we never had a good sentence with each other... today he showed his concern for me over this issue and this made me cry even more. as for my younger brother, he's not at the age where he understands all these but his "zeh... dont cry.." really really made me feel so fucking guilty for what i've thought. not only that, even kimkim knows how i felt, she was snuggling on me while i was crying.

daddy and mummy's advices are opposite. daddy's speaking from experience while mummy is sacrificing herself so as i can benefit and be the same as the others.

after all these, i tried to understand and go along. daddy's right... im still young. plus who knows what will happen next. i choose to believe them and stop myself from those childish thoughts. i have to learn to ignore the view of the others. as long as im clear of conscience and im filial, thats enough.

tonight, a lesson learnt that no matter what happens, your family is always by your side. everyone else may come and go throughout your life but family will always be there. whether you're right or you're wrong, they guide you and support you.

i guess i've lost the initial mindset and im ready for the new challenge ahead of me in the future.

thank you daddy, mummy, kor, derrick and of course dearest cheryl for being so supportive.
I'LL BE STRONG (:

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JJONG! :D

Its been long since I've blogged. Well, my life aint exciting at all.
The supposed exciting part was to be next week. But thanks to the party
going on right now, we're calling it off. Fuck man. Pissed ttm. Just as
our anticipation is so high, now its gone. Argh whatever. I'll save my
money then! :(

Btw I'm learning hangul right now. Via the net of course. And its sooo
difficult. Oh mama. But I'll try my best! :D

Bahneesah's bday celebration of hella awesome! Love these girls! <3

My life's good and I'm lovin' it. ;)

"DAEBAK!"

HAHAHAH everyone's thinking im crazy about kpop.
come on! im just listening to korean songs and watching their videos!

what's wrong! fyi, im not a fangirl. i know my limits. -.-
plus i dont understand what's wrong with kpop.

i dont see people calling others crazy when they listen to cpop. right?

its just a different language! so what if we dont understand? as long as

we enjoy the music! just get along with it! all these are keeping me

company whenever im bored. it has become part of my hobby man.

HAHHAHA. so i think until something else comes along, i'll continue

my hobby :D (FYI, I REALLY KNOW MY LIMITS)

on a happier note, im so enjoying these days.
monday - met up with yvonee and janice to catch up. :D

tuesday - bowling meeting. dinner with TNPs. dessertbowl with bowlers.

today - shopping with mummy. watching dream team.

tomorrow - tuition for jerrold. dinner with YPJ.

cant wait cant wait!

and i really hope the protest in BKK can end soon.

at least before we go. i'm desperate to go there to shop please!

im saving my money well so please let me spend them happily!

okay back to reading my book.

:O i know.

WHEEEEE! finally got to enjoy myself :D
the award show was awesome! 90%.
i'll keep the 10% to myself. but hell, it was daebakkkkk!
totally enjoyed myself. finally a live performance from them.
singing and dancing were equally awesome compared to videos! ;)
how can they be sooooo HOT?! :D so much so that they won the
loudest cheer from the 10000 crowd. as though its their concert!

of course not forgetting other awesome veteran singers who
performed nice songs that i enjoyed. JJANG!

the showcase was... quite unexpected. both good and bad.
bad for the whole management. good is definitely for them.
back to 100%! HAHAHA! although it was a short one, but i'd
definitely enjoyed their live performances and interview.
nice one :D

WHEEEEEE! 4PM finally met up after sooo long!
fyi, we didnt name ourselves after 2PM k -.-
anyhoos.... it was an awesome evening spent at 85
for dinner and a dessert treat at east coast road. :D
got to meet up for P.M soon okay!

*complains*
I DESPERATELY WANT TO WATCH HELLOBABY!!!
SFI IS TAKING WAY TOO LONG TO SUB!!
:( :( :(

DOUBLE YAY FOR GRADUATION :D

now im free from everything and anything about TP ;)

yesterday after our last paper, my dear GROUP 8

went for a celebration! its quite an early lunch at

Jack's Place. we talked and ate for about 2 hours. :\

recalling the funny stuff during the entire year3 while

we were chionging for projects everyday from 10-6pm.

seeing them everyday makes me sian. LOL. but i guess

im gonna miss all these. thank you all for your hard work

and contribution and commitment to group8! i guess

our hard work indeed paid off :D AWESOME BAYBEH!

GROUP 8 FTW!

afterwhich, i finally had a proper CNY celebration.

headed to uncle alvin's house with cheryl, cindy and candy.

steamboat. unblock game (ps: its like a lan shop with 5

computers playing the same game with everyone grumbling).

gambling. playing cards. having the yusheng war

and funny commotions. trying to find the culprit who

overturned the whole basket of yusheng. (LOL)

HAHAHHA the night was really awesome with

a light hearted feeling. homed at 3am. KO.

ice cream chef later! cant wait! :D

CNY this year was..... different.

no mood to eat CNY goodies.

no mood to gamble play cards.

no mood to go visiting.

no mood to take pictures.

no mood to open angpows.

HOW COME SO DIFFERENT THIS YEAR?!

whats wrong with me. :[

anyway the trip to big aunt and ahboy korkor's house

was the most fruitful. after hearing from them, i felt....

enlightened. i guess there's no need to plan for my future now.

i'll go as it is. thank you for the advices :D

it sucks having to study at home when im supposed to be out enjoying :(

YAYYYY! exams over!!

2 down! 3 more to go! :D

i cant wait!! im thinking of my post-graduation plans everytime i study.

i know i should concentrate but i cant help it! plus
my mind kept telling me that stargoldenbell will be on air later at
6pm and i must remember to watch it. and also dont forget there's
dreamteam tml at 5pm! you see. tell me how to concentrate.
but i still will. i hope.

AND

i cant wait for 13march! and of course my BKK trip, which extended to

become 5D4N! im like constantly typing and typing about anything and

everything because i need a break from studying the killer paper, cchem. -.-

okay seems like my life aint fantastic and elastic at all.

thus i have nothing much to update about.

so yeah. i'll go back to be a loser to continue on cchem. CCHEM FTW!

fyi, the process of applying for uni is such a mess. screw it. $#^#%^

TELL ME THAT ITS WRONG TO STUDY EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING ABOUT THE LIVER WHEN I DONT INTEND TO BECOME A DOCTOR. thankyouverymuchkbye.

unofficial completion of ALL 5 PBLs!

yeahhh baybehhhhh :D

2 more days to official completion of projs.

5 more days to term tests.

15 days to unofficial graduation! :D

I CANT WAIT YO. :D

back to mmic.

these 5 gorgeous boys from korea are my entertainment

in youtube almost daily. it keeps me entertained and happy.

cant believe they're in singapore. hearing the same voice that

i always hear in youtube. seeing the same face that i see daily.

i still cant believe it. 15 for 15 is worthwhile to make myself

happy. seeing the fact that i havent been this happy for soo long. ;)

everyone's just got to go through such "immature"

stuff (if you call it) to be happy.

and i am happy. which is awesome.

Leader Onew. Maknae Taemin. Bling Bling Jonghyun.
Flaming Charisma Minho. Almighty Key

-snaps back to reality-
okay back to studying, I KNOW.
3 more weeks baybehhhh~

YAYYYY MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

Magnae Rebellion (tick)
Hello Baby (tick)

Star Golden Bell (tick)

Star King (tick)

:D :D :D :D

okay back to mugging. bye -.-

watching MAKNAE REBELLION can really brighten up my night!

HAHHAHA! next! cant wait to watch HELLO BABY! :D omggggggg.

give me youtube, i'll stay awake. ;)

im SORREHH for the disappearance!

there's really nothing interesting about my life right now.

unless you want to hear me nag about school?

3 papers on the week before CNY.

2 papers straight after CNY.

nice.

im fine. im fine.

emotions running wild yesterday.
i had a great time with dearest.jer.marc.dien.kunlong.hankiat.alwin just now :D
which gave me a relaxing day today. time to chiong tomorrow for
next week's busy schedule! HWAITINGGGGG (:

IM FEELING SOOOOO DOWN NOW :(

i think im giving myself too much pressure.
i feel so lost when i reach home. so lost till i break down.

1) so many things at home waiting for me to do. only me doing.

2) napfa today is seriously pissing me off. i think i set high expectations of myself. and now i have a bigger disappointment. seriously, if not for sit&reach, i would have gotten a gold. now its bronze. like......... #@$@#%#@%^$&@&%^#@@$%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3) schoolwork and projects are really scaring me off. i sense the change in me this semester. i tend to be more kancheong. call me a spider -.- i just feel paranoid and want to get things done. im afraid we'll forget some stuff due the packed schedules. the more i am like this, the more pressurised i am. but i really dont wanna screw up this semester. TELL ME HOWWWWW.

4) with all these, im lacking of sleep. badly. by the time i finish all my work, i have no time for myself. no entertainment, no rest. :(

5) i havent been catching up with my friends and all. this is bad. when they wanna meet, i realised i have no time for them. but i feel super bad about it. and i have to leave my schoolwork aside for them. i think im selfish :(

6) i know what people will say. "dont give up! five more weeks! hang on there!" YES I KNOWWWWW. but tell me how to get by these period first -.-

THIS IS BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD :( im wasting my time here blogging.
bye.

from 10am to 5pm doing project everyday -- is soooooooo cool uncool!

feel so loser-ish sitting at AS level 1 daily to do projects.

need a multi-plug for 5 lappies somemore. best.
schedule super duper uber packed.

almost everyday got to reschedule everything due to unfinished business.

and what's gonna make things worst are guest lectures, NAPFA, trips, talks.

arghh. give us a break. even after school,
reach home also must skype to do proj.

loser max? yes. but im glad the group's chemistry is getting better and everyone's

hardworking yo (:  let's do this well together yeah! cant wait to graduate in

5 weeks time! :D :D :D

please dont date me next week, people. super busy.

anyway..... i've been missing out on my shows and e
ntertainments cause of schoolwork.

thats veryyyyy sad. however i managed to watch
LET'S GO DREAM TEAM 2 just

its sooo kancheong please. didi and i will go
"omg omg hurry up! run run run!!"

HAHAHHA. okay this is super random. :D

kkkkkkk. napfa tomorrow. wish me luck yo.

janice's birthday celebration cancelled today.

and i continued to stay at home to study.

for 2 consecutive days.

loser or whatttttttt. :(

get me out of this bloody subject! (its a pun)

anyway i'd better sit down and talk to daddy mummy

about my future. yesssss. its soooo bleak.

today, there's so many discussions over universities.

tell me. should i TRY and appeal for local uni.

or should i go overseas. HUH. HUH. HUH?!

kbye.

AWESOME VOICES :D

so so so so SOOOOO BUSY :(

tell me why that im graduating in 1.5 month's time
and everything is piling up now. thats bad.
i'd better plan my time well. seriously,

i spent like 9hours in school daily. and merely 3 hours

trying to finish some schoolwork at home before

i can really rest. though most days have no lessons,

but im going back school everyday. to do project. nice.

endure there! come on! 1.5 months more left people! :D

anyhoos, cant wait to go to the zoo on sunday! :D

yay yay yay to the reunite of ahKAMzxz!

angsiewling's turning 20 in 2 days time. omg.

HELLOOO EARTHLINGs (:

my mind is still telling me im in 2009 :\
anyway..... i've been eating far too much lately.
311209 - East Coast Lagoon feast.
010110 - Nihon Mura
020110 - Shabu Shabu Steamboat BUFFET -.-
i.think.i.need.to.control.really. fattening max!

OHH OHH OHH! YAY! WE'RE GOING BKK! :D
yeap jope booked everything!
YAY! SHOPPING in april 2010! cant wait yo! :D

xoxo

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! :D

i think i need a change of my blog address.
sick and tired of it. its been. 5 to 6 years?
HAHAHAH! yes. too bad there's no archives.
unless im out to embarrass myself.
and yeah. there's no change to the skin or
whatsoever. just change in blog address. (: